Connecting to Self-Care, when your previous self-care practices are out of reach

The following is a guest post written by Sujata Patel. You can read about Sujata’s journey through fluoroquinolone toxicity in her Floxie Hope Story and on her web site, Journey with Sujata. If you would like to write a guest-post for Floxiehope.com, please let me know through THIS LINK

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When it comes to feeling good and regaining your health, self-care is one of the most important things we can do for ourselves. I am sure you are thinking, “Yeah right…I barely have the energy to shower in the morning, let alone focus on self-care practices…” I get it. Please keep reading.

Prior to my fluoroquinolone poisoning in July of 2014, my self- care practices kept me fit, healthy, optimistic, peaceful, grounded and vibrant. There was nothing I couldn’t tackle, because my mindset and my physical health were well taken care of.

As a single mother with four teenagers at the time, it was very important that I kept myself in great health. I took that seriously. I did many things to keep myself in optimal health. I slept 8 hours a night. I took basic supplements. I ate very well (aside from the occasional doughnut or ice cream). I worked out five days a week. This included spinning classes, boot camps, yoga, walking, running, cycling and hiking. The endorphins that were released during those activities made me feel amazing. I also meditated 30 minutes twice a day. I meditated first thing in the morning, and in the afternoon before my children would come home from school. This kept me centered throughout the day and fully present for my children in the evenings. I spent a lot of time with friends. We would meet for coffee, hike trails in our local parks, ride bikes, or meet for dinner. We laughed and laughed at anything and everything that came up. My emotional and physical tanks were full. So when a friend in need called me, I could drop everything and be there to help in any way possible. Regardless of what stressors presented themselves…and they did…I was well equipped to handle them and the ups and downs that came along with them. And even if something threw me to the ground, I didn’t stay down very long. I could always connect with my self-care practices and lift my mood in a healthy way.

When I got floxed, everything changed. Almost every single thing that kept me grounded, centered, optimistic, fit, uplifted, and hopeful was taken away from me. I fell into the hole of a victim. My tendons were brittle, my muscles were in immense pain. The nerve pain that shot through my entire body was unbearable at times. My joints hurt so much along with the rest of my body, that it was even difficult to just sit or lie down. Anywhere there was pressure put onto my body sent impulses to my brain that registered as pain. And as many of you know, that pressure doesn’t have to be significant. It could be the soft touch of someone just resting his hand on your thigh in an attempt to reassure you.

Because of the completely debilitating condition, I could not walk to do things for myself, let alone spin, cycle, do yoga, hike, and run. Those endorphins that used to coarse through my veins? Gone. I couldn’t sleep at night because of the incessant pain. Anyone who has experienced chronic pain can understand what that does to someone’s psyche. The pain was so unbearable and my mobility so impaired, that I stopped reaching out to friends to get together. It was impossible to sit on a hard chair at a coffee shop without wanting to ball up and cry…let alone use precious energy to attempt to be there for a friend in need. The friends, the laughter, the social aspects of my life disappeared. Time in nature on trails at our local parks? Well that fell by the wayside also. It was too painful to even think about expending that sort of energy. The prospect of living like this at age 45 with 4 children that I was raising on my own was devastating. Of course major depression set in, and everything I had in my tool box to lift me out of it was inaccessible.

What now? Well I had to think about how I was going to help myself. Clearly, a part of me is always looking for a way to get better and heal. If I didn’t have that deep down badass drive, I would not be here sharing my success story with you.

In my hours of self-pity for no longer being able to do advanced yoga poses, I came across an article written by a monk who had suffered some physical limitations. He spoke about his daily yoga practice and how he adjusted to his situation. The main point that helped me was that even if he could not do asanas (poses), he could still connect to pranayama (breathing exercises) and meditation. Breathing exercises are a part of yoga, and when he woke up in the morning, if he couldn’t do poses he would connect with breathing. Day after day, his yoga practice consisted of only breathing and meditation. And he was gentle with himself, knowing that he was still practicing yoga…just not in the way most people view yoga. This article changed a few things in me. It helped me be gentle with myself and release expectations of doing things the way I used to. And not just in my yoga practice, but in my life. There were many things I had to relinquish. If I did it with resistance and self-pity, it was not helpful. But if I did it with compassion and gentleness for myself, I FELT better emotionally.

I started using breathing exercises and meditation to help relieve my pain. Of course, being in incessant pain, any reprieve from it was welcome. My meditation practice during this time was in no way one of those things where you see someone in full lotus position with proper hand positions and crown of the head reaching toward the sky. I was balled up in fetal position on the sofa or in my bed as I was practicing. What a beautiful gift it was to find that I could lessen the pain and even find brief moments of no pain while I was meditating. Finally – I was able to connect with a self-care practice that actually helped! Breathing and Meditation…

The next thing that came to my awareness was Epsom salt (magnesium sulfate) baths. Along with being extremely beneficial for drawing toxins out of the body, magnesium baths have so many more benefits (more about this in future blogs). I started taking Epsom salt baths a few times a week as part of my self-care practices. It was something I could totally do, cripple and all. All I had to do was fill up the tub, add some salts and sit there. While I was there, I would light candles, dim the lights, and use this time to connect with silence and softness. This was incredibly nourishing for my body as well as my mind and spirit. Very powerful.

I did start to find that I was so focused on researching solutions for this condition, that the other side of my brain was stagnating. I needed to do something to give my analytical brain a break. In an effort to do this, I started doing periodic creative nights. I am by no means an artist, but I would sit down with my girls and create whatever I could. It wasn’t about creating a masterpiece. It was about taking the time to DO it. Taking that paintbrush and dipping it in paint, then doing something…anything…with it on my canvas or paper. It is amazing how focused I could get on my creative project, that I could escape, for some moments, from the reality of my condition.

Massage therapy became a mainstay of my self-care practices, and still is to this day. Before being floxed, I might have had a massage once a year. It was usually on vacation as a well-deserved treat. I highly recommend this to anyone who has been floxed. But be careful. You don’t want anyone to press too hard on brittle tendons and have them rupture. Make sure you communicate clearly with your massage therapist and be selective about where you go! Massage therapy was great. It has helped me to release the trigger points, the constant contraction of the muscles and spasms. And all I had to do was get there, lie down, close my eyes, and breathe.

These few practices were a great start to being able to take care of myself in some way. These basic self-care practices took me from completely and utterly face down in the dirt to offering a little hope for relief, healing, and reclaiming my life.

What can you do, even in your condition, to help your body, mind and spirit?

  • Learn meditation and breathing exercises and practice them DAILY.
  • Take Epsom salt baths.
  • Schedule regular creative nights and do whatever comes naturally to you.
  • Get regular massages.
  • Above all, be gentle with yourself.

In love and healing light,
Sujata

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13 thoughts on “Connecting to Self-Care, when your previous self-care practices are out of reach

  1. Alexandra March 21, 2018 at 8:58 am Reply

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  2. Shelley Sharp March 21, 2018 at 9:08 am Reply

    I loved your article! I too was Floxed in 2014, August. And like you, I discovered that I needed to establish some self care routines. I do Epsom bath and Massages (not as many as I would like to because my budget will not allow it). For creativity…I do crochet and reading a good book or listening to an Audio-Book. I was so concentrated on research and trying to find a way to heal that I forgot about being gentle. I also do skin brushing and rub coconut oil into as much of my skin as I can reach. Instead of the meditation, I pray. In the mornings I try to stretch my body in bed and then concentrate on breathing and relaxation. I saw the most healing summer of 2016. I was grounding (aka earthing)…bare feet in nature, lots of trees around for at least 30 minutes, but usually much longer. We have 230 acres of private land and sometimes I ground naked, LOL. I know, it sounds crazy, but it helped me.

    • wellnesswithsujata March 21, 2018 at 6:21 pm Reply

      Grounding is a wonderful practice that I also connect to. It’s not crazy :). I’m happy to hear you have connected with self care practices that benefit you in some way. It’s something most of the population neglects and it’s so important to find what helps our minds feels better so we can either have a break from the incessant thinking about whatever is going on or so we can send those positive messages to our bodies to help heal in ways that no supplements or foods will heal. I wish you continued healing and that you connect with as much joy as you can. Thanks so much for sharing!

      • wellnesswithsujata March 21, 2018 at 6:22 pm Reply

        Oh and LOL. I just caught the naked part of the grounding- my neighbors wouldn’t like that. But how awesome you can do that on your property!! More power to you!

  3. L March 21, 2018 at 10:34 am Reply

    It’s great these things worked for you but they do not work for everyone. Fir months a was gasping for every single breath. Struggling to breathe I could barely eat so it was either breathe or chew and swallow. ( I lived on smoothies but that was still difficult). Many have had masssge make their side effects flair. Some have even had problems with epsom salt. And many of us have had periods of such extreme anxiety/paranoia/insomnia/depression thatwe were quite paralyzed by it. So again these may be helpful for some but just not possible for others.

  4. Dan Jervis March 21, 2018 at 11:47 am Reply

    Dearest Sujata, After being floxxed in 1996 with 60,000mg of Cipro I have been imprisoned with chronicity. There is comfort to read about your diligence and hope that I will have a breakthrough after more than 7700 days. You reinforce my belief in Epsom bath soaks and massage and your tenacity reminds me of myself. Wishing us both rewarding wellness, Dan

    • wellnesswithsujata March 21, 2018 at 6:16 pm Reply

      Dan,

      Thank you for your kind response. I truly wish you the best in your recovery and Wellness. There are many facets to healing and it’s a balancing act as well as a lifelong journey. I’m wishing you well and sending healing light.

  5. Ross Allan March 21, 2018 at 4:12 pm Reply

    In my opinion, the pain throughout your body is related to your gut bacteria balance. Some old hardy antibiotic resistant bacteria have become dominant. These bacteria release toxins to control the host (you). The Cipro killed just about all the other bacteria in your gut.

    Solution: Take some parasite cleanser with wormwood, black walnut, paw paw, cascara bark, mugwort, elecampane root etc. Or put some essential oil on your skin containing ginger, fennel, coriander, taragon, anise, caraway & peppermint. Either of these solutions will stop most of the pain within a week. Use Google to find suitable products. These have worked very quickly for me and others. They will not get rid of all the Cipro issues, but will deal with the pain.

    Take some Probiotics to repopulate your gut with good bacteria after the above. A spoonful of Oat Bran a day will help the good bacteria flourish.

  6. JP March 25, 2018 at 4:36 am Reply

    You wrote: “Anywhere there was pressure put onto my body sent impulses to my brain that registered as pain.”

    I have this really badly. How did this resolve for you? Did you take some supplements that heal the nerves or what? Thanks.

    • wellnesswithsujata March 25, 2018 at 7:58 pm Reply

      JP, yes the treatment I came up with for myself was a bit extensive and over time that particular pain resolved. If I’m overexposed to specific toxins, I find they return. However I can usually step it up and figure out what I need to do to resolve it. Detoxing has been a very important tool for me for healing and maintaining my current state of health.

  7. Steven L. Weyenberg April 14, 2018 at 1:26 pm Reply

    Always informative this sight is. I had a sensativity to my environment with of course all kinds of major things, and ongoing. Just to say though with this article, my allergies became untreatable until I started chewing on fresh ginger, especially as a symtom of worst sickness accured. Lemon-water, tumeric, garlic, and anything else that is God made. That is if one can have any of these without pesticides, heavy metals, and other toxins. Continue with, study, and experiment with all natural things as “healthcare providers” practice thier deceiving ways for money and power with the upper hand. Try not to become bitter in Your roller-coaster ride of emotions and stay believing in a higher maker, for the proof is all over the world as tainted as it is. Peace to You, you heavily laden…

    • L April 14, 2018 at 2:10 pm Reply

      Hey Steve, my allergies have become just horrible post Cipro. Things that have helped (some) with constant post nasal drip and asthma are NAC, serrapeptase and black seed oil. Will try chewing on fresh ginger too, thanks.

  8. Leah Pearce April 21, 2018 at 3:07 pm Reply

    Hi Lisa, your post has helped me. I was a motorcycle riding grandmother of ten when my appendix ruptured around thanksgiving 2016 I was given these drugs in the hospital and now I haven’t walked in a year and a half. I do the breathing and meditation. I will add massage and Epsom salts baths to that. I am living on the edge of insanity. My husband recently suffered 2 strokes and is doing well considering. But the severe depression, and like you I can’t use any of my old helps, walked every day, worked in my yard, rode my motorcycle nearly every day. I cry nearly every day now. I have never had such despair in my life, I feel like my brain is shutting down. It’s criminal that these drugs are still out there. Sincerely, Leah. ( I’m 70. I know it’s harder on older people)

    Sent from my iPad

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