The Loss of a Loved Community Member

The “floxie” community lost a wonderful person last week. His name is Marc Thavenot, and Levaquin killed him. Marc struggled with fluoroquinolone toxicity for three years. He fought for his life every day of those three years. However, in November 2018 he lost his battle.

Officially, his cause of death was suicide. But the truth of his situation is much more complicated than the simple label of “suicide.” I suppose that all suicides have more to them than simply someone taking his or her own life. There is always a back-story.

Marc’s back-story is that he was tortured by a combination of fluoroquinolone toxicity (Levaquin), benzodiazepine damage, and Lyme Disease. On his web site he described his situation:

“In October 2015 after I had a fall and broke my hand i was put on a drug called Valium which is a benzodiazepine for anxiety and insomnia. Then 3 weeks later I was given an antibiotic called Levaquin for what the doctor thought was a stubborn ear infection. Little did I know that not only are these two drugs dangerous by themselves but are contraindicated when given together and risk for toxicity goes up tremendously. Upon taking the second dose of Levaquin, day number 2, I awoke at 4am with the most terrifying symptoms one can imagine. I felt the most horrific impeding doom, burning all over, ringing in my ears, blurry vision, panic, anxiety and fear unlike anything i could have ever imagine. For the next couple weeks these symptoms persisted along with the most brutal insomnia one can imagine with no sleep for days on end. Having already been dealing with having Cerebral Palsy my entire life this was just life shattering yet I had no idea what was yet to come. A couple months of this and things began to get worse with hallucinations, blood pressure spikes, body temperature deregulation, bone pain, shortness of breath, adrenal crashes, immune system crashing, GI problems, food sensitivities, rashes, teeth pain. It was just absolute hell everyday and i was completely unable to function and no doctor could figure out what was wrong.”

For three years Marc dealt with these issues and more. One of the more devastating symptoms that Marc dealt with was tinnitus that ruined his ability to do his job as a music producer and sound engineer.

Marc tried many things that he hoped would help his situation. Tragically, none of the things he tried cured his fluoroquinolone toxicity, benzodiazepine damage, or Lyme disease.

Perhaps with more time some of his symptoms would have faded, or maybe a cure for fluoroquinolone toxicity, benzodiazepine damage, or Lyme disease would have been found. Perhaps the thing that would have helped Marc to turn a corner toward healing would have come in a few more months, or a few more years. Tragically, we won’t know if solutions would have come to Marc. His time here is over, and that is so, so, so horribly sad.

Like many, maybe most, people, I struggle to find the right words to say both to a person who is suicidal and about a person who has committed suicide. I am not equipped emotionally, nor do I have the right training professionally, to say the “right” things to/about people who are suicidal. So, I have steered away from the topic, and suggested that people reach out to suicide prevention hotlines and mental health professionals. I still suggest both of those things. The National Suicide Prevention Hotline can be accessed through and 1-800-273-8255. The people who answer the Hotline calls have tools and resources to help steer people away from suicide, and I hope that people use the Hotline as a resource. However, I’m bothered by my own suggestion that suicidal people “reach out.” I’m bothered by the suggestion because Marc DID reach out. He reached out to to many of us in the floxie community, including me. He asked questions and he sought advice, and he was given guidance to the best of our ability. But nothing helped, and his health continued to decline until he couldn’t take the pain any longer. Now he’s gone. I wish I had done more to help Marc. I wish I had known the right thing to say to him, or the right advice to give him that could have possibly shifted his path. I wish he was still here.

I know that there are others in the floxed community who feel guilt over not “doing more” to help Marc. I’m sure that you all did what you could. I did. But I wish I had done more, and I feel bad about not doing…. I don’t know…. more. But as a friend pointed out, why are we feeling guilt while the people who gave Marc the drugs that killed him feel no guilt or remorse about their role? The pharmaceutical company creators of Levaquin, the FDA (or the equivalent on Trinidad and Tobago), the doctors, etc. played an active role in poisoning Marc, but most of them have no idea, and they feel no guilt, while we do, and Marc is gone.

I hope that Marc’s family and friends know that the thoughts and prayers of many people throughout the world who “knew” Marc through the fluoroquinolone poisoned community are with him and them. He was clearly loved, and he is missed.

Levaquin, benzodiazepines, and Lyme disease killed Marc. He was tortured by the illnesses brought on by these pharmaceuticals for years, and I can’t say that I don’t understand how they could lead to his suicide. But, with all the love and respect in the world to Marc and his loved ones, can I please encourage all my floxed friends reading this to not go down the same path? Death is permanent. With death there is no hope or chance of healing. For every day that you are alive, there is a chance that healing will occur. There is the chance that discoveries will be made that will lead to cures. There is a chance that your body will cross a threshold toward healing. There is a chance of joy. There is a chance of love. There is life. There is hope.

I hope for strength for each of you. I hope that you get through fluoroquinolone toxicity. I hope that your body, mind, and spirit heal. I hope that you maintain hope, and that tomorrow (or the next day, or the day after that) brings the healing that you are hoping for.

I hope that Marc’s loved ones know that he touched the lives of many people throughout the world. He is missed, and our community is in mourning.


Marc’s friend Nicholas asked me to share this message. It includes Marc’s last message.

Marco and I were friends since we met in 1999, best friends since 2002. We had a business together and we helped each other through some tough times and eventually, unwillingly, we were forced to dissolve the business for economic reasons and a shift in the landscape of home studios. It wasn’t easy. We had our differences of opinion and that coupled with other developments in my own life caused us to grow distant for a while though we frequently spoke via phone and message. We overcame our differences, our defunct business, and leaned on each other again and became brothers.

Over the last 3.5 years of him suffering we visited when we could, but spoke at least 3 or 4 times a week minimum for 30 mins to 3 hrs depending on how he was feeling. During the last 2 months, we spoke every day. I am recovering from my own issues, and I always hoped that he was doing the same, but it never came to pass.

Most people couldn’t endure watching him suffer. It was my honour to do so and help him through it, but to all who feel a ‘how’ just know, he understood. He often lamented that all those that surrounded him before had disappeared, but he knew how hard it was to watch someone suffer. He held no grudges.

Above all he wanted me to pass on this message so that people could know what he went through, what this drug, this dangerous ‘last resort only’ drug that is still treated like it was Panadol, did to him.

He was suffering from brain fog, which will be evident in his writing. I think it brings the message home with greater strength…

Marc’s words:

I wanted to write to you to thank you for all that you have done. Not once did I think that you didn’t do everything possible for my well being

The more I understand of my situation the more I realize I’m stuck in a very complicated viscous cycle. Iv just had a lot of trauma in my life that Iv struggled to let go of and it’s not because I have not tried but because it’s trsuma I have to relive everyday from young I was in pain and it was a physical and emotional struggle to do simple daily tasks even though I didn’t show it I certainly felt and I kept strong and pushed through. This built up trauma eventually weakens ones immune system and emotional health which I why I struggled so much with depresseion even though I didn’t show it as much

My accident breaking my hand was another trauma that started the ball rolling and then having surgery introduced anesthesia that also did not help the situation. Then came the final blow the levaquin which obviously damaged me in very serious ways I’ll never know for sure but I know was never the same after taking that drug.

I cannot begin to describe pain Iv felt everyday with having to live with CP. it was agony that existed both emotionally and physically. Then getting floxed and experiencing absolute nightmare symptoms daily And then to have so much taken away and have having fought to heal only to get worse and relapse due to who knows what. Fq toxicity is no joke and it has been just too much for me to deal with I have no life. This is not living.

Everyday since since I took that drug levaquin iv felt unattached, like my Head was filled with cotton and I couldn’t focus. every bit of sleep I got which was minimal I woke up to me extremities feeling like they were being crushed and burning. The main symptoms that were horrific with adrenal surges and BP spikesc of 210/110. Then it would drop to low 90/50. I have internal vibration that felt like if I was hooked up to a low voltage shocking station. I have severed moods swings with crying fits for no reason, my body felt heavy like someone filled me with lead. I feel completely exhausted but couldn’t sleep because i felt this pressure in my back my head that squeezed my head almost like if I had a parasite octoputus like thing in my head. Everyday I have severe abdominal pains that would feel like someone stabbing me with a knife. My mid and lower back would ache feel tense. I had several parts of my body feel numb and go completely week on a daily basic. My teeth would ache everyday. My jaw would be tense. My ears suffered horrible as they would be extremely sensitive to sound and burn life fire inside. I have nerve pain all over my body . I have stabbing bone pains in shins and arms. My vision is double blurry and not what It was. My chest feels like someone sucker punched me in the soloplexus. I have skin burning all over which feel so bad sometimes even taking a shower hurts. I feel like I’m out of my body with extreme brain brain fog fatigue and pressure all over my body and when I push to do anything I feel pressure all over my body with fatigues like some sucking energy out of me get worse. fingernails hurt and have arthritis like symptoms that make it hard to type play guitar etc. I have severe digestive issues with bloating constipation food intolerances. I can’t tolerate the sun or groups of people which makes going out or liming with friends almost impossible. My ears click with damaged euststion tubes so I hear things louder and sounds like resting a glass down on a table or a speaker phone would hurt my ears and I would hear audible distortion in my ears if I tried listening to music even at very low levels. All of these symptoms and more iv have endured from the day I took those pills. It’s now over 3 years and I still experience all of them in groups randomly everyday. Lack of sleep and depression have been a huge challenge as iv been not able to work feel joy do daily activities etc. fq toxicity is no joke and it ruins lives. Iv had countless doctors tell me it’s in my head it’s anxiety disorder. Bullshit. Cause after 2.5 years of hell I went on to antianxiety medication which barely helped. Except I feel more sedated but still can’t sleep. Fq toxicity can include damage of receptors in the brain that are responsible for managing our neurotransmitters. It can cause dna damage. Vegus nerve damage. Totally destroy your microbiome. Damage to mitochondria which is your main cells Responsable for energy production. It can damage immune function and send you body into extreme fight or flight which it did for me. Allowing infections viruses etc to wreck havoc as they have the oppertunity. After extensive testing in my journey to try and heal. I’m positive for Lyme , babesia , Scarlett fever, ebstein bar, cmv, herpes hsv 1 7 and 8, hpv. Rubella and a collection of parasites. What I did find out was I didn’t get my cerebral palsy from lack of oxygen at birth which usually leads to full body defects and speech problems. I had a different cp which is common with cmv virus infection in the nervous system. This would explain all my life I struggled with being unable to relax and have an easy time with relationships because my nervous system was compromised. It was difficult for me to be social. Well thing is the levaquin I took activated that virus and made it much worse along with everything I mentioned above so my cp got worse I now I’m forced to walk in crutches. Fq toxicity damages cyp450 liver engine pathways which responsable for metabolizing herbs drugs etc. no longer can I take pain killers thc or several other things that could have helped ease my suffering. This has affected me greatly as it’s affected my detox pathways and left me unable to detox like a normal person. Which creates a very toxic environment in your body which leads to more symptoms due to leaky gut and poor methylation.
These are things doctors are commonly unaware of and is why Iv had no real help because there really is no solution to what iv been going through. After 3 years and I’m actually worse off now after everything I’ve tried I really don’t know what else to do. All I know is life is absolute torture everyday and a struggle and I never knew someone could feel so bad. Only one who has experienced this could ever possibly get it.

I want everyone to know that there is so much more to what’s was going on with me that I would take a lifetime to explain. But the pain and torture that I go through nigh and day over and over again is just too much for one to endure. So please if your reading this don’t be angry or mad or sad or hurt because you think Iv done a bad thing. Know that I’m free of the worse pain and torture that I could ever imagine and please feel a sense of ease knowing that I no longer suffer. I know I’m my heart that my soul is in a beautiful place. And that it was just stuck in a sick body.

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29 thoughts on “The Loss of a Loved Community Member

  1. L November 17, 2018 at 10:52 am Reply

    This makes me so sad and angry. And I felt like I was reading my own story.

  2. Holly November 17, 2018 at 11:24 am Reply

    Our hearts break for Marc and all of us who suffer. I hold no judgement as I feel too often that death would be a welcome relief from FQ Toxicity, Lyme, and misc. May he rest in peace. And my hope is that we all draw close and remain supportive and dare I say ‘hope’ that we become functional. We must continue advocacy and demand treatments that are effective and accessible. I treasure my conversations with Marc and others who are suffering and hope to see the day we are acknowledged and treated properly…….ox

    • L November 17, 2018 at 12:12 pm Reply

      No judgement here either. In fact, for much of my first year I was looking for ways “out.” I recall that just at the beginning stages of my horrifying descent into floxie hell, an old friend of mine had committed suicide. While everyone else was saying how awful it was, all I could think was how lucky he was. No one can ever know what someone else is going through, and I get angry when I see people post that it is selfish because it hurts other people. To me that is a very selfish point of view. If you applied it to any other situation, it would seem absurd. Would you tell someone to stay in an unhappy marriage because a divorce would hurt the spouse? Anyhow I feel very sad for Marc, and of course for those close to him…but his pain is finally over.

      • nmartinez1938 November 17, 2018 at 1:31 pm Reply

        [L.] I want to know more of your health status as of this day. To all who read this reply, I don’t have an inkling of what you may be going through, but from what I’ve read here at this moment, here is the proof pharmaceuticals are extremely toxic, even for my wife, who will not give them (cocktail of daily meds) up.

        I’m just the opposite, and share this simple proven Hippocrates truth; –“Let food be thy medicine, and let medicine be thy food”! To prove H. point, garlic will prevent bubonic plague, and is a cure for many diseases.

        • L November 17, 2018 at 1:45 pm

          Today I am light years from where I was at my terrifying worst. I still have issues though. I was diagnosed with macular degeneration just after the cipro, and I still have floaters and other vision issues. I no longer have the horrific asphyxiation from all things, but am very sensitive to scents. Certain stores, esp. ones that carry fragrance or candles, I can not be in more than a few minutes. All my toes are still numb, and I still have (now permanent) fluid around my heart. I still have the tinnitus which at times is almost insufferable. Not a ringing but a constant hiss/buzz/hum. The collagen damage and fast weight loss (36 lb in 2 weeks) left my skin in bad shape. I also still get phantom scents and they are never pleasant. Usually a chemical smell or like something burning. I have another congestion issue which so far no one has been able to treat successfully, that I think may perhaps be a mast cell disorder from the cipro.

          While all that sounds like a lot (and it is) it is SO much better from where I was. I felt like I was dying, was in extreme pain, gasping for air, choking, and a mental mess. For months I could barely take a step without help Today, I am back to doing at least some forms of exercise. My vision is what I worry most about. And yes, I am so anti-pharmaceutical now. IT is hard to find doctors that are integrative. IF you do, many don’t take insurance. IT’s very expensive to try to be healthy.

        • nmartinez1938 November 17, 2018 at 3:05 pm

          Great! Thanks for your rapid reply and update. From the year Lisa started blogging to this year 2018, fortifies this is a legalized crime against humanity. I will be posting comments and hoping to have a dialogue with Lisa soon. Not certain yet how to share privately email addresses but will find that out soon. My blog is on WP since 2012. Visit and comment is one way of sharing emails….

        • nmartinez1938 November 17, 2018 at 3:32 pm

          I understand your concern about your vision. Also the for profit health care industry bottom line does make the pursuit for care un-affordable to many. We must find affordable care.

    • nmartinez1938 November 19, 2018 at 1:53 am Reply

      This has stirred my interest to my very core. The toxic meds that have robbed innocent victims of their health continues without being held accountable. We must think also of how to rinse these induced poisons out of our systems, or the best possibility we can find or devise, or achieve.

      • Lukasz November 30, 2018 at 3:37 pm Reply

        Oral iodine and the use of sauna are two options to flush out fluoride, heavy metals and other toxins.

        Re: food as medicine. Holds true, however, keep in mind that many foods have been stripped of their nutritional value ie. vitamins, minerals etc. and replaced with artificial, synthetic ingredients or chemicals. At least here in North America, not sure about the rest of the world. It’s done deliberately to keep people sick and to feed the pockets of those who profit from such people.

        Garlic is GOOD stuff.
        Excellent antioxidant.

        • nmartinez1938 December 3, 2018 at 11:54 am

          It is sad the number of people who still trust their well being is being protected by the alphabet agencies. I guess it is the problem of having grown up believing in our ‘inherently’ good as a people…

    • Steven W. November 19, 2018 at 11:54 pm Reply

      I second this. I try to spread the word as much as I can and maybe I should push harder on how to draw out more available help for us all. The squeekiest wheel gets the grease first. I wish that I would have went to that FDA meeting years ago. A bigger and more appropriate apology from them or J & J rather, should be and should have been done already. Instead of them doing just what they are only forced to do. This is all real. My Family and many many others surely are living proof. Thanks to any and all for support and God be with the ones all in dispair. A broken and contrite heart we all surely have… From a forced stay-at-home Dad of over ten years now from Levaquin 750s/Cipro more than 5 times, I surely surely know and wish I could reach out to all dispaired. I do believe God hears us, even though I don’t understand, and He lets.

  3. Bonnie Walker November 17, 2018 at 12:46 pm Reply

    As someone who has struggled with some similar symptoms for the past 5 or more years my heart breaks for Marc but I also know he finally has found some peace. I have struggled with the mood swings, severe pain in my extremities and insomnia that can make anyone suicidal. After days on end of no sleep or no relief and the suggestions of people who don’t have a damn clue what this is like, I would many times rather be dead than go another day like this. I have written countless suicide notes to my daughter and grandkids and have kept every one that I wrote. I have cried, begged for help, and even taken to using pot and other pain meds at times to knock me out so I wouldn’t kill myself. I know what that would do to my daughter and that is what keeps me going. I hate her sometimes for MAKING me live another day with this mess. My family avoids me because they don’t want to hear about my problems and there is no lonlier feeling than to be alone with this. I have been where Marc was and he is much braver than I. However, after years of fighting leg and foot pain, restless leg syndrome, fibromyalgia and being poisoned by Cipro I finally allowed my ex husband to check me in involuntarily for evaluation. I knew I wouldn’t last another day with no rest or no relief, etc. That night was horrible in the hospital when they would not give me my normal meds. I cried, begged, and pleaded with them but they said they weren’t ordered. I survived the night with surprisingly less pain than I was used to. The next morning I saw the psychiatrist and he asked me how I got there and he listened to me. Then he checked every medication I was taking, Gabapentin for nerve pain, Duloxetine for depression and help with the muscles and Ropinerole time release for my horrendous restless legs. A little later he came back and showed me the damage that ROPINEROLE, the generic REQUIP could be doing to me. 20 of the 22 bad side effects described me to a T. I stopped taking it cold turkey that day against doctors orders but I wanted that poison out of my system. Today, in just a few short weeks, I am 90% pain free and can walk without pain, have no more mood swings or aggression (actually shot at someone months ago), no impulse control issues (gambled my business away), no UTI infections, no FOG! I am walking, happy, smiling, and losing weight. I feel human for the first time in years!

    My message is to trust no medication, even one that you have been taking for years. Recheck them ALL and re-read. We are all susceptible to exaggerated effects of any medication once we have been poisoned. I wish I had known Marc. I know that God will not judge what he did to end his pain even though pastors everywhere will tell you different. Our God knows that when we make that decision we are not in our right mind and are sick. He is a merciful God and will welcome Marc home.

    • Lukasz November 30, 2018 at 4:12 pm Reply

      What a story you have. Very beautifully said re: Marc. Congratulations on your recovery thus far.

  4. nmartinez1938 November 17, 2018 at 1:38 pm Reply

    Reblogged this on Viruses Dead End Here! and commented:
    This is a profound testimony against pharmaceutical drugs.

  5. Bj November 17, 2018 at 2:46 pm Reply

    I don’t understand this – No one should feel so alone and lacking the support that a trial of this enormity requires but unfortunately some of us do understand and will get through this!

  6. Ruth Young November 17, 2018 at 5:00 pm Reply

    Thank you, Lisa for writing this. It is perfect. I knew you would find the right words.

    • Nicole November 18, 2018 at 2:56 pm Reply

      I agree with Ruth. Very well written for something we have no words for. I actually do have a lot I could say but just not ready.
      And Ruth I want to thank you for taking over with helping Marc when I just could not anymore. We both understand that doing so sometimes puts us in jeopardy and I was feeling guilty that I could not be there anymore but Marc’s own words have given me some peace of mind.
      For now just a hug for all my floxed friends and keep the faith as everything can change tomorrow. ❤️

  7. Kevin November 18, 2018 at 5:58 am Reply

    Good Bye Marc.I love you

  8. Steven W. November 18, 2018 at 10:02 am Reply

    Very heartfelt here and yes God Loves us with all understanding and is completely merciful knowing fully well the heart. One of the toughest things for us who have been wrecked by medications is that, Your ability to support Your Loved ones is hindered because of the lack of strength and energy. You can’t even get better Yourself and so one has to stand by watching thier Loved ones endure sufferings without even Your usual supportive words You used to have. And cannot help physically as well which is heart-wrenching. I had a Brother that did this same thing and yes meds were a big culprit from it. I myself have struggled on and off with those thoughts, which started right after taking Levaquin. That’s not in my nature to have ever thought that way before then. I convince myself that it’s just a thought dispite my inabilities, pain, or emotional state. It’s been a tough thing to endure wanting to die but can’t. I can’t leave my Family. God forgives and does exist, and He didn’t do this. Even though God allows much and we don’t quite understand, God is. Love endures and covers all things.

    • Lukasz November 30, 2018 at 4:44 pm Reply

      It’s hard to believe that our bodies and minds can be altered so drastically. In the past, I never understood why people committed suicide but needlesstosay, I understand now. I sometimes reflect back on my own suicidal ideations of the past and how I talked myself down at the last possible moments. It’s a terrible set of circumstances to find yourself in but as everyone here says, God is merciful and does forgive those who’s minds were poisoned.

  9. Lukasz November 29, 2018 at 10:07 pm Reply

    I’ve only now come across this news. It’s been a very long time since I’ve been able to feel any sort of emotion, I’ve been mostly numb for the past 4 years, but I’ve been weeping the whole time as I read the news of Marc’s passing. Even though I have severe memory loss from the antibiotics, I do remember Marc’s posts early on and his battle to find solutions to the problems so many of us face each day. I remember him mentioning in one of his posts that he was a sound technician and that the tinnitus was preventing him from being able to accomplish his work. I knew Marc was desperate for an antidote, we all are, and I too wish there was something I could have done for him. But suicide is a very personal decision. As Lisa mentions in this article, no one in their right mind wants to go the route of suicide. It’s something that’s done out of desperation to end prolonged pain and suffering which we all know can be downright consuming on every front of human existence.

    Lisa is right though, his health should never have been taken away from him in the first place. He was killed by Levaquin, but it’s the makers and prescribers of Levaquin who are the guilty party of this tragic outcome.

    Marc, even though I never met you, nor did I even see a photo of you until moments ago, I want you to know that you’ll be missed by many on here and know that you’ll always be in our thoughts. May you find peace on the other side.

    Lastly, my heartfelt condolences go out to Marc’s family and friends during this difficult time.

    • L November 29, 2018 at 10:38 pm Reply

      You said everything I was feeling about this. I too remember some of his posts. During the first year, when I could barely see a couple feet in front me, and I was gasping for breath, in horrible pain, dealing with just unimaginably nightmarish olfactory nerve damage, and I had lost so much weight, I prayed for death. Day and night. I had so many mental and physical assaults, and felt so frightened, hopeless and desperate that I wanted out. IF I could have found a sure fire way, I wouldn’t be here today. It was only fear of failure that kept me alive. As hideous as my condition was, I thought “what if I ended up paralyzed?” Or what if someone finds me, drives me to the hospital and I end up with more chemicals being pumped into me. So I understand completely that Marc did this. Hard to go on when there is no hope.

      I’m a kind person…sometimes perhaps overly empathetic…and yet. There are times when I find myself fantasizing about the head of Bayer being hooked up to Cipro nonstop, until a cascade of side effects start taking place. No one will ever know the torture we endure, the disillusionment, the grief at losing so much. And that people are profiting from this is just beyond fathomable.

      • Lukasz November 30, 2018 at 1:04 pm Reply

        I’m glad you’re still with us, L. You’ve made massive contributions to this community. More than you probably realize and we are lucky to have you. The fact that you were one of the worst impacted on this site and the fact that you’re still helping new and old floxies, speaks volumes about you. I’ve said this before but I’ll say it again, thanks for your vast knowledge, your empathy and most importantly, your ability to connect with everyone. I’m sure I speak for most people here when I say that we all appreciate it.

        I think a lot of people here, myself included, have had similar thoughts about revenge towards those that are responsible for bringing this pain and suffering about. I’ll be perfectly honest, I thought about taking matters into my own hands, payback of sorts. I’d say I thought about it every second day for the first 3 1/2 years. I wanted these people to feel my pain. Then I came to realize that it was the evil one himself who was pushing these thoughts through my head. Since then, I’ve learned to make peace with my situation.

        As Gandhi once said… “An eye for an eye will only make the whole world blind.”

  10. L November 30, 2018 at 4:00 pm Reply

    thank you. and great quote

  11. Robin December 6, 2018 at 1:35 pm Reply

    Lisa-thanks for expressing what I could not!!
    Marc wanted everyone to know that Fluoroquinolone Antibiotics killed him 3 years ago & that his final decision was one he battled with every single day of those years along with the never ending horrific pain & suffering!
    I’m so sad & angry that it came to this for my sweet friend but I totally understand…as only another “ruined” Floxie can!
    Fluoroquinolone Antibiotics Destroy Lives
    (Rest in the gentle peace you deserve🙏)

  12. Laura January 11, 2019 at 6:52 am Reply

    Lisa you did a beautiful job. And thank you for passing along the note from his friend and Marc’s own words also. I don’t know what to say, am forever changed by knowing him, if only online. Wish I had the answers, what he endured is an abomination. My heart goes out to Marc, his friends and family.

  13. illnessislife December 3, 2019 at 11:44 am Reply

    I don’t blame him at all. Even if there’s hope for better days years later in the future, it’s not worth it. I don’t understand why anyone thinks it is. When you’re in that much pain, everything inside you is screaming that you want it all over with now. There’s no relief and nowhere to run to. No escape, no drug that stop the feeling. It’s not just about not having hope. Hope helps, but that’s not all there is to it. And when it’s hard to think straight or feel much, which often happens with this sort of illness, it’s hard to find any meaning or form in anything in your life. You’re just getting by day to day and that’s all. This man was already suffering before any of this hit him, so it’s not like he has a great past life experience to help him imagine how wonderful life could possibly be. He might have been just barely holding on to hope to keep him going even then, before the meds hit.

  14. Orf May 8, 2020 at 7:45 pm Reply

    My God, so heart breaking sad….

    RIP Marc, God bless you.

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