Retirement Farewell

I started Floxie Hope back in 2013, about 18-months after the start of my fluoroquinolone toxicity journey. At 18-months post-flox, I had largely recovered and wanted a place to share my recovery story. Though I had recovered physically, I still had a lot of anger and emotional energy around the experience of getting poisoned by ciprofloxacin. I wanted (needed) something productive to do with those emotions, so I poured them (and my heart) into Floxie Hope. Writing about my experiences, my anger, and my hope, helped me to process the emotions I was experiencing. Helping people through fluoroquinolone toxicity, advocating, investigating, writing, testifying, and speaking about fluoroquinolone toxicity became a huge part of my life. This site, and the floxie community, became my purpose and my passion. I loved advocating, I loved helping, and, even though it’s an arduous process for me, I loved writing about fluoroquinolone toxicity. It was good–at times it was great–and I am grateful for all that this site has brought me (I’m not grateful for the fluoroquinolone toxicity, but I am grateful for the purpose, joy, community, passion, etc. that this site has brought). 

As they say, all good things come to an end, and I have decided that this is the end of my journey as a fluoroquinolone toxicity fighter. I have decided to move on, and to hand Floxie Hope on to someone else (more on that later). It’s bittersweet. I am sure that I’ll miss everything about Floxie Hope–especially the people it connected me to.

Getting to a place where I was fully recovered from fluoroquinolone toxicity was always my goal. I was physically recovered many years ago. It took a lot longer to recover emotionally, and it took even longer to recover from the anger. That time has come though. I am fully recovered on every level. Even the anger is gone.

But with subsiding anger, there has been subsiding passion and connection. Many of you have noticed my lack of passion and connection, and have commented on it. I’m sorry for not giving this community the energy that I used to give it. You (the floxie community) deserve passionate people fighting for the cause. I am no longer one of those people, and it is time for me to step aside.

I am retiring, and handing Floxie Hope over to someone else. Though Floxie Hope has “Lisa” all over it–it started with my story, most of the posts are written by me in my voice, and it’s in a style that I like–it is bigger than me. Floxie Hope is more than just a website too. It is a community, a resource, and a tool. I don’t want those things to go away just because I’m going away. I don’t want the site to fade just because I no longer have the emotional energy to maintain it. So, I am handing it over to a fellow “floxie.” I’ll introduce him in my next post.

This post is to announce my retirement. Sometime between now and the end of 2020 I will transition away from Floxie Hope. I anticipate that the change will be difficult for some people–change is always difficult for some people (myself included)–but I hope that Floxie Hope comes through the transition as a stronger, more resilient, energized tool and resource. I suspect that the person that will take the transition hardest is me. Letting go is going to be hard. But I think that letting go, and handing Floxie Hope over to someone that has the energy to nurture it, is better than letting it languish. I think it’s the right thing to do.

So…. this is the beginning of my goodbye. The transition will be gradual, and I’ll put up a few more posts, but I will be leaving soon.

It’s been great being a part of the floxie community. It’s a community full of wonderful, generous, thoughtful people. I will miss you, friends! Thank you to each and every one of you who has contributed to this site and this community. Hundreds of people have generously spent so much of their time and energy supporting each other with their stories of hope and healing, comments that have helped others through the horrors of fluoroquinolone toxicity, emails, phone calls, and so much more. It’s a community, and I will miss it generally, and many of you specifically. I will continue to be available via Facebook for those who want to reach me personally.

Please be good to each other. Be kind, be generous, and be hopeful–these are my wishes for my floxie friends and the floxie community.

xoxo,

Lisa

*****

 

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75 thoughts on “Retirement Farewell

  1. Richard November 10, 2020 at 8:02 am Reply

    This has been a true light. Thank you so much Lisa.

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:15 pm Reply

      My pleasure! It will be different, but hopefully my successor will continue to make it shine. xoxo!

  2. Barbara Arnold November 10, 2020 at 8:05 am Reply

    Lisa,
    I can’t thank you enough for all you have done for the floxie community with this site. I’m really sad your retiring and you will be sorely missed, but you more than deserve a rest from
    all this. The time and energy you have put into Floxie Hope and the talks, the publicity you have created have been invaluable. You my dear friend will always be Floxie Hope’. You gave us so much and I know all of us will miss you terribly. Good luck and tons of love on your next great adventure. You have something special Lisa, and I know no matter where the future takes you, you will succeed.
    I’m keeping my eye on you on facebook. xxxxxxxxx

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:16 pm Reply

      It’s been a pleasure being your friend, Barbara! Thank you so much for your kind words and your confidence in me. Hugs to you, my friend!

  3. Jan Bush November 10, 2020 at 8:17 am Reply

    Lisa, so many people, pets and kids are going to miss your dedication and passion, but am glad you’re passing the torch to someone equally caring.

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:17 pm Reply

      Thanks, Mom! xoxoxoo

  4. rahulkohli82 November 10, 2020 at 8:18 am Reply

    In 2017 when I was floxxed my girlfriend came to this site and told me about people recovering from Cipro. I didn’t want to hear about people being ill forever like a lot of other sites on the web so I chose not to read anything online. To have a site full of hope is so important and I’m glad that you created this and I got to contribute with my own recovery story recently.
    Thank you for all you have done in giving myself and others, hope. Rahul

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:19 pm Reply

      Thank you so much for sharing your insightful and wise story on here, Rahul! The stories give people hope and guidance, and yours provides both, so THANK YOU!

  5. Cheryl November 10, 2020 at 8:24 am Reply

    Thanks Lisa and good luck in the next chapter of your life!

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:19 pm Reply

      Thank you!

  6. Bonnie November 10, 2020 at 8:49 am Reply

    Thank you for the comfort of truth that you gave. Having been through some difficult years, including being in a bad marriage while suffering, it helped to piece things together.God bless your future endeavors!

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:20 pm Reply

      I’m so glad that this site helped you, and thank you very much!

  7. Miriam Knight November 10, 2020 at 9:00 am Reply

    Hi Lisa, Thank you so much for your help and support, especially when we were just starting to get the UK group together in 2015. We’ve learned so much from you and often use Floxie Hope as an educational resource as well as directing members here who are despairing of their own recovery. Sending you very best wishes, love and support for whatever you do next, Miriam xx

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:24 pm Reply

      Thank you so much! I appreciate all of your advocacy work as well! You’ve made a difference. Thank you. Hugs to you, my friend!

  8. Don November 10, 2020 at 9:23 am Reply

    Thanks for everything you’ve done Lisa. Every time I was giving up hope I’d get one if your emails and it give me the strength to carry on.

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:25 pm Reply

      Thank you so much, Don! It’s messages like yours that make me teary in a good way. It has been a pleasure, and I am truly honored to have helped. Hugs!!

  9. Mark A Girard November 10, 2020 at 9:35 am Reply

    Thanks, Lisa, for all your contributions to the FQ community. It was great meeting you in DC. What happened to us sucks, but we chose to make a difference for the better and as you described, in the process, we got to know a lot of really great people as we shared in both agonies and in triumphs. Celebrate your triumphs and carry on with your life with well deserved pride in what you have accomplished here. I wish you nothing but the best!
    Mark A Girard

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:26 pm Reply

      Mark, you were a force in this community before me, and you will continue to be a force long after I am through. Your commitment to this community and our cause is amazing! You’re a great person, and I wish you the best as well!

  10. tricia November 10, 2020 at 9:37 am Reply

    Thank you for all you have done for everyone in this community. I was floxed in 2015, you and a couple others reached out during the scariest time of my life… with words of encouragement and some vitamins to try….I eventually did heal, 100% . I’m not sure where I would have been without floxie hope, but it helped me so much in the first 2 years.
    Thank you Lisa for all your work and helping so many ❤

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:31 pm Reply

      I’m so glad that I could help and that you have healed! It’s been a pleasure and honor to help you and our fellow floxies. Thank you for your kind words, Tricia! Hugs to you!

  11. Anja November 10, 2020 at 9:46 am Reply

    Thank you Lisa, floxiehope helped me understand what was happening to my body when the doctors didn’t (want to) know. It gave me hope, strength & advice to focus on recovery at a very frightening time for me & my family.
    You created a wonderful, supportive site from a negative pharmaceutical experience & helped educate many other victims of FQs. Thank you for your service, best wishes & good health for the future. Anja, Belgium.

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:38 pm Reply

      I am so glad that floxie hope helped you, Anja! Thank you for your kind words! It has been a pleasure. 🙂

  12. Clara November 10, 2020 at 9:56 am Reply

    Thank you for giving so many people hope! I wish you all the best!

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:38 pm Reply

      Thank you!

  13. Clara November 10, 2020 at 9:57 am Reply

    Thank you for giving so many people hope! God bless!

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:38 pm Reply

      Thank you!!

  14. n1n34n November 10, 2020 at 10:11 am Reply

    Congratulations, Lisa! I think it is good that you’re doing this, and indeed bitter sweet, too. You will always be so important and dear to me personally. And I’m glad to be FB friends with you. One day, when all this covid drama ends, I hope I’ll get to see you in person.

    Romy >

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:40 pm Reply

      Than you, Romy! I hope to see you in person as well! Fingers crossed and prayers that this COVID stuff ends soon. Thank you for your support too! xoxo

  15. Pavel November 10, 2020 at 10:20 am Reply

    Thank you
    I was reading yoir website everyday.

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:41 pm Reply

      My pleasure, Pavel! I am so glad that it has helped and that it has given you hope! Hugs!

  16. Cindy Wittstock November 10, 2020 at 10:32 am Reply

    Dearest Lisa,

    Thank you so much for all you have done for the Floxie community. Your posts have been much appreciated and have helped so many people including myself. All the best for your retirement and well done for taking on this journey with guts and determination.

    All the best, Cindy.

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:41 pm Reply

      Thank you so much, Cindy! I appreciate your support and your kind words! I am glad that my posts have helped. Hugs to you!

  17. Vickie Wood November 10, 2020 at 11:47 am Reply

    Thank you Lisa for all that you have given and all that you have done. I know letting go is hard and I understand there comes a time when you need to move on. I am wishing you much happiness on your journey. I know for me letting go has been something that came in stages. I had to accept how far I have come and make the decision to no longer let what’s happened to me define who I am. I think of everybody I met along the way and how lucky I was to be part of a group of people that are strong, resilient, giving and more important than any of that truly understand the damage I personally have had to deal with. All of us have shared this frustrating journey of recovery and loss. I know you will find something rewarding to spend your energy on. Thank you again, you are amazing!

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:47 pm Reply

      Thank you so much, Vickie! I appreciate your support and kindness! This has been an incredibly rewarding journey, but it is time for me to move on. I appreciate your understanding and kind words! Thank you! xoxo

  18. Lisa Moss November 10, 2020 at 12:13 pm Reply

    Thank you so much for all your help! When I was first floxed you were my lifeline!! That was priceless and I am forever grateful. Good luck on all your future endevours.
    Sincerely-
    Lisa Moss

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:48 pm Reply

      I’m so glad that I could be of service, Lisa! Thank you for your kind words and well wishes! It has been a pleasure. Hugs to you!

  19. Paul Gilbert November 10, 2020 at 1:16 pm Reply

    Lisa,

    I was floxed the same year as you and have been with you since the begging of Floxie Hope. You always took to the time to personally respond and communicate to with me during some of my most difficult days.

    Thank you Lisa!

    Paul Gilbert

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:54 pm Reply

      My pleasure, Paul! I’m glad that I could be helpful. 🙂 Hugs to you!

  20. Karin Fairhurst November 10, 2020 at 1:49 pm Reply

    I just want to say a huge thank you Lisa, Floxiehope has been a lifeline to me as both my son and I were floxed.It provided hope, information support and positivity when I most needed and I won’t ever be able to thank you, And all the people who have shared their stories, enough. I attribute my recovery to Floxie hope. I wish you all the very best in your

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:58 pm Reply

      My pleasure, Karin! I am so glad that floxie hope helped you! It brings me to happy tears to hear that your recovery can be attributed to the site. It’s an honor! Thank you for your well wishes too! xoxo!

  21. Gloria November 10, 2020 at 3:31 pm Reply

    I would never have”discovered” that it was for which devastated my son’s existence, year ago were it not for you and the information you shared. Thank you for all your heard work. I am glad fluffing hope will remain. It’s an important resource for so many.

    • Gloria November 10, 2020 at 3:33 pm Reply

      Darn autocorrect strikes again. Best wishes for your future.

      • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 8:59 pm Reply

        Thank you, Gloria! I am so glad that I played a part in helping you and your son to “connect the dots.” Thank you for your kind words and best wishes!

  22. Cindy Schmidt November 10, 2020 at 7:39 pm Reply

    I too thank you Lisa….This site I found by accident helped me to find the things I needed to heal…..Good luck on your next journey in life….You will be missed…..Love from Texas

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 9:04 pm Reply

      Thank you, Cindy! I’m so glad that you found floxie hope and that it helped you to heal! Love back at ya from Colorado!

  23. Virginia November 10, 2020 at 8:52 pm Reply

    Lisa, you will be very missed! Thank you so much for all the years of faithfully running this very helpful site which was vital in my early Cipro recovery days. We do appreciate all you have done for us in the FQ community.

    • Lisa November 10, 2020 at 9:04 pm Reply

      Thank you so much, Virginia! It has been a pleasure and an honor. xoxoxo!

  24. Vince Crane November 10, 2020 at 9:52 pm Reply

    Lisa! You would be proud. On the day you retired, is the day I finished reading all 124 Floxie hope recovery stories. I have compiled all of the data into an excel file to see what the most “common” themes were for those who have recovered. Your website here has been a gift, it has given us hope and I am so grateful. Thank you. You can email me anytime at vwcrane13@gmail.com

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 9:47 am Reply

      Hi Vince,

      That’s amazing! I would love to see your spreadsheet! I’m going to email you right now. 🙂

  25. Rose Casanova November 11, 2020 at 6:25 am Reply

    Congratulations on your retirement, Lisa. I totally get it. I want you to know that you and this website has been a huge inspiration for me and it started a years long journey for me reclaiming my health and my life. I am forever grateful. I wish you all the happiness in the world.

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 9:50 am Reply

      Thank you so much, Rose! It has been a pleasure getting to know you and watching your journey. You’re an inspiration as well! Happy wishes going your way too. xoxo

  26. mmec7 November 11, 2020 at 6:29 am Reply

    Lisa – Thank you for everything. Your amazing triumphs in this area of vital research. Your uplifting support in the most trying of human circumstances. Your bringing awareness of the unwanted side effects of these drugs to the wide arena. To your push and focus in gaining acknowledgment of the downsides of usage of the quinolone drugs. Thank you. And thank you for always ‘being there’ to answer my many questions. Enjoy your retirement – complete the bucket list and indulge every aspect of your list. Be well and continue well – Molly C – France

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 9:53 am Reply

      Thank you so much, Molly! Your kind and generous words are so greatly appreciated! Hugs to you!

  27. Michaela November 11, 2020 at 8:46 am Reply

    Thank you for all the work and time you have put into Floxie Hope, Lisa! Your site has helped me pull through a very hard time in my life after I got floxed 3 years ago. Reading how others were dealing with Fluoroquinolone Toxicity and what may have helped them has been so important to me. Wishing you all the best! Enjoy life!

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 11:28 am Reply

      Thank you so much, Michaela! I am so glad that it has helped you!! Best to you as well!

  28. Miranda November 11, 2020 at 11:35 am Reply

    Thank you, Lisa – this is the ultimate hope story when someone moves on. By setting up this site, you have helped so many! I was floxed 18 months ago and I’m not sure what would have happened had I not found your site so early on. It was a huge help and while I also still feel angry, I hope, too, to move on from that in the future. Wishing you all the best and a happy, healthy future.

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 11:30 am Reply

      Thank you so much for your kind words and support, Miranda! I’m so glad that the site has helped you! It took a LONG time for me to work through the anger. Be patient and kind with yourself, and I hope that time heals the anger as well as all the other wounds. Wishing you the best as well! Hugs!

  29. John Taylor November 11, 2020 at 11:57 am Reply

    Thanks Lisa for all you gave.

    Your place in heaven has Ben secured. When we both are there I am sure the emotion of ours meeting will,be inense.

    LOL
    John Taylor

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 11:31 am Reply

      Thank you so much, John! And thank you for all your wonderful contributions to Floxie Hope! You have taken so much time to help people, and everything you have done and given is so appreciated! Hugs to you, my friend!

  30. Sandy Danner November 11, 2020 at 7:28 pm Reply

    Lisa, you have touched my life deeply through Floxiehope and the community within it! I found information, guidance, amazing stories of perseverance, and most of all…HOPE! I hung onto each word I read. Then I would read , reread over and over as much as I could. I had to learn about this horribleness happening to me. You offered an amazing platform for all of us to help us navigate through all of the fear, the unknowns and worry. You were our friend. Thank you, thank you, thank you for being there all of us Lisa. I would have been lost, truly lost, without Floxiehope. Peace to you! Xo -Sandy

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 11:40 am Reply

      Thank you so much, Sandy! You made me cry some bittersweet tears of both joy and loss with your wonderful, heart-felt, generous, thoughtful words – THANK YOU!! It has been my pleasure and honor. xoxoxoxoxo to you as well!

  31. Madge Hirsch November 12, 2020 at 4:10 am Reply

    It is sad to see you go but reassuring to know that you have been able to move on completely from your floxing. Thank you so much Lisa for all your hard work on this essential site. For me it helped solve the mystery of 30 years of on and off health problems and see the links between them and exposures to Cipro. I visit it nearly everyday and it has been a great support. I still have not let go of my anger though it has reduced! All my best wishes for a radiant flox free future. Madge

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 12:17 pm Reply

      Thank you so much, Madge! I am sad too…. it’s bittersweet and hard… but I do feel like it’s time. It has been a pleasure and an honor working with you to help you understand your mysterious health problems. Hugs to you, my friend!

  32. filmingshakespeare November 12, 2020 at 9:33 am Reply

    Lisa, you have helped me through the darkest of times. I will remain forever grateful. The stories and especially the podcasts saved me. I fully understand your decision and hope that one day I will also move on and retire from this community however much I appreciate every one of you. Have a good life!!!

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 12:25 pm Reply

      Thank you so much, and I’m so happy that the site and the podcast helped you!! It has been a pleasure. Hugs to you!

  33. Christina November 15, 2020 at 9:39 am Reply

    Lisa,

    In my opinion even this goodbye is helping many people. Good for you!!! Although I can see why some might feel upset It’s proves that there will be a day that we can all leave this time of our lives behind and move on. I am happy for you and thankful for all the heart and soul you’ve given the community over the years. I look forward to the days I follow in your foot steps!

    • Lisa November 15, 2020 at 12:28 pm Reply

      Thank you, Christina! Though I feel very bittersweet about the decision, it is hopeful in a lot of ways, isn’t it? It’s healing that the anger is gone, but I miss the passion and connection. I have mixed feelings, of course. I really appreciate your support, and the support of so many others! I hope for healing for you – hugs to you, my friend!!

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  35. Lynda Ann Smith November 16, 2020 at 2:31 pm Reply

    While I will always think of you and your ongoing commitment to the Floxie community as being synonymous with FloxieHope, I recognize and sadly accept the reality that you must now step aside in order for the new you to fully evolve. Every moment of every day a part of us dies and a part of us is born anew. You have yet to discover what that is, Lisa, but I know you will carry with you that inner drive, passion, and perseverance which has served to make FloxieHope the resounding success that it has been. Thank you, Lisa – I wish you the very best in all your future endeavors!

    • Lisa November 16, 2020 at 5:23 pm Reply

      Thank you so much for your kind words and understanding, Lynda! I wish you the best in all of your endeavors as well! Be well!! xoxo

      • Diego Vasquez November 16, 2020 at 8:28 pm Reply

        Lisa, thank you so much for everything! Because of this site I finally was able to know what had happened to me with Levaquin. Also, it was through this site that I was able to get information to receive compensation for this horrid toxicity… I continue my journey to be fully healed, as you know you have seen me come a long way in my recovery… I too keep healing emotionally and in my soul… I’ll continue to keep up with you on FB. Hope to meet you in person one day! 🙂 PS I continue to go to acupuncture 3x per year-you were the one that recommended it! Blessings
        Diego 😉

  36. Bj November 17, 2020 at 2:44 pm Reply

    Don’t ever forget the experience of where you were when flox attacked and where you are now and all the experiences in between! You’re just starting a new chapter in your wonderful book of life. Don’t let anyone take that away from you! Blessings *

  37. James November 17, 2020 at 2:50 pm Reply

    Hi Lisa,
    I too was floxed with Cipro in 2013 and am just recovering. Finding Floxie Hope from ‘across the pond’ has helped me greatly so thank you so much.
    James xx.

  38. Andrea November 18, 2020 at 8:43 pm Reply

    Wow Lisa, only now I’m reading this and to be honest with you, it really caught me off guard. This is the only website/community I’ve joined since this unfortunate journey started and you can’t even imagine how important and useful it has been over the years, and even if now I’m not joining Floxie Hope as I used to, it’s still and will always be a safe place for me to find useful infos and great people who share this difficult path. It’s kinda sad to know you’re “retiring”, but I understand everything you wrote in this post. You’re a great woman Lisa. You helped me so much. Thank you for everything. I wish you the best.
    Andrea.

  39. Gerardo Martinez November 23, 2020 at 9:43 pm Reply

    Thank you ms. Lisa for all your hard work. I came upon your website in March 2020 about 5 weeks after being floxed. What terrible pain I was in: shooting pain through my arms, fatigue, 10lbs feeling like a weight attached to your chest. Through your advice and that of your readers my recovery began. Rebuilding the mitochondria and my cells along with liver support was the crucial key. B vitamins, D, C vitamins along with milk thistle and coq10 and N A C. Here I am 9 months, later, today i feel about 90% recovered. Went on A 4 mile hike with my family, even carried my 10 year old son on my shoulders for about 10 minutes
    A big thank you for your kind and encouraging words. Gerardo Martinez

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